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Good Vibes
04:07
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Woke up this morning with a feeling in my gut.
The opposite of disgust,
A feeling I ain't feeling much.
Roll over, look at the clock, time to get up.
As I'm puttin on my socks, lose my balance, start stumblin
Stub my toe on the bookshelf, I start mumblin
Under my breath, "Stupid motherfucker."
It's kinda chilly and I'll admit I wanna get back under covers,
But I can't. Nah I can't.
Cause, yo, This is my life, I won’t let it get the best of me
They say I don’t got it, but I know I have the recipe
Tryna move forward, but this life keeps on testin’ me
And folks don’t take me serious, like I’m a precious baby, please
I feel better than I have in a long while
Felt some type of way, told my fam, made my mom smile
Picked the board back up, still got this shit all down
And now my pen’s back to paper, like, yea what now?
If you can’t tell or can’t hear it in my voice
I am so fucking happy, like I finally got a choice
I hoisted my spirits, now I’m back spittin’ lyrics
And if you really knew me you would prolly know that this is
A very big deal ‘cause I’ve been through hell
A depressive adolescent, yea, I’ve been through hell
I had to fight through poverty, yea, I’ve been through hell
A broken, torn family, fuck, I’ve been through hell
I almost took my own life, but I came out swell
Took my own life, but I came out, well…
I guess we’ll address that at a later date
Cause today, yo, here is what I came to say:
I came to say nothing new
At least, from point of view
This music saved my life, I bet it did yours, too
Cause we all have moments where we struggle with that darkness
Only difference is the severity of our hardships
know you have a choice: be a monster, become heartless
Or do what I did and just keep pushing it regardless
The “it” in this sense is your life, keep living it
It may not get better, you won’t know until you finish it
Ha! You won’t know until you finish it
And that’s the sad truth, but we all know life’s a bitch
gotta find humor in the irony of shit
And drown yourself in the art that you’re passionate with
Passionate about, mine are books and music
And due to these things, I am an empathetic human
Like a sponge, I absorbed all the stories, and I used ‘em
To shape my personality into someone who was cool wit
Everything and everyone, minus all the ignorant
Racists and rapists, misogynistic hypocrites
Homophobes and others who hate people for their differences
Man, this a sad world we livin’ in, isn’t it?
Yea, honestly it’s a bit ridiculous
Could’ve made a thousand songs dedicated to our politics
I’m tryna get off that, so all I’m gonna say is this:
No name drop, you-know-who can fuckin’ suck a dick
Anyway, switch lanes, time for me to move on
So much to love, why waste energy on a moron?
So much to praise. Plus, I’m tryna keep the vibe strong
Music is amazing, I feel lifted when the song’s on
Yea, this has been a great discussion
It’s important to note this was just an introduction
If this your first exposure, I really hope that you’re crushin’
The conversation was great, but it wasn’t real, was it?
It all happened in my mind as I went about my day
This happens all the time, life continues all the same
Get up for work, do my job, then I deal with school
Come home, do chores, then I’ll prolly cook a little food
Get ready for bed, go to sleep, repeat the process
No glamour in my life, but I’m startin’ to see progress
The only thing connecting all these tedious events
Is the music playing in my ears, relieving me of stress
When I mention goods vibes, I’m talking ‘bout good records
That something so dope you just have to go get seconds
It’s Sandpeople one moment, the next I’m on Descendents
Now it’s time for some Biggie. You know what? Fuck it, I want Zeppelin
It’s hard not to love it, whether it’s new or its old
Cause age don’t make a difference, it’ll never decompose
Age don’t make a difference, music always fuels the soul
Age don’t make a difference, music’ll always be my home
I’ma run that back
It’s hard not to love it, whether it’s new or its old
Cause age don’t make a difference, it’ll never decompose
Age don’t make a difference, music always fuels the soul
Age don’t make a difference, music’ll always be my home
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Bad Nights
03:02
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People love life and I question their reality
Cause mine’s suffocating ‘till I really find it hard to breathe
I stay progressing through mine, isolated, silently
As I wait for sleep’s embrace, ‘cause I’d rather live up in my dreams
What time is it?
Eight PM, what to do?
Should I get ready for bed?
I’ve gotta be up in a few
See movement outside, it captures my attention
I split open the blinds just to peek for a second
The sight I see, I swear it nearly takes my breath away
My throat feels constricted by a lump that takes up too much space
Jet down the stairs, taking six at a time
Nearly bust open my face, tears swelling in my eyes
Slide across the floor then I throw open the door
She was walking towards the porch
Now my sentence cut short
She runs into my arms and wraps her limbs around my body
Sensory overload; now my head is getting kind of foggy
I feel her skin on my skin
I feel her breath on my neck
I feel her hair on my chin
Then I start the questions:
“What’s going on? Tell me, are you okay?”
These questions get repeated as we’re held in this embrace
People love life and I question their reality
Cause mine’s suffocating ‘till I really find it hard to breathe
I stay progressing through mine, isolated, silently
As I wait for sleep’s embrace, ‘cause I’d rather live up in my dreams
“What’s going on? Tell me, are you okay?”
These questions get repeated as we’re held in this embrace
She grabs me by the face, looks me dead in my eyes
And says, “I am okay. Don’t worry. I am fine.”
Well what… the fuck is goin’ on? I’m bugging out
After all this, I can’t believe that she’s in my house
I can’t stop staring at her gorgeous lips, her pretty mouth
I hear her voice in my ears and I know it’s her without a doubt
Plus, the little imperfection in her two front teeth?
And the way her glasses sit contently on her cheeks
My God, she’s really just as beautiful as last time
I can’t believe she’s here, so you know I have to ask why
Carry her all through the house, “Had to see you,” her response
“Never told you my address”
“Got the info from your mom”
After getting confirmation, bring her to my room
Sat her on my bed and that’s when I came to
People love life and I question their reality
Cause mine’s suffocating ‘till I really find it hard to breathe
I stay progressing through mine, isolated, silently
As I wait for sleep’s embrace, ‘cause I’d rather live up in my dreams
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Terrible Mornings
03:58
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I feel my eyes slowly open as I’m waking up
Reality hasn’t registered, don’t know that was fake as fuck
It’s pitch black, takes a sec for me to come to
A few more before I know I’m alone in this icy room
A smile creeps across my face as I remember
The previous night and how we are in this room together
Before long, the smile fades, left with a blank stare
As I reach across my bed for somebody who simply ain’t there
In that instant, feel my world crumble beneath me
I can’t believe it, refuse to accept that I was dreaming
I feel it coming back, the heartbroken panic attacks
I feel that precious organ shatter into little shards of glass
‘Cause she was right here
Damnit, she was right here!
I held her in my arms and heard her voice inside my damn ears!
Can still feel her breath on the side of my neck
Can still feel her arms around it, too, her body pressed against my chest
Remember every little detail in these quiet moments
Tears stained these sheets, the clearest sign I am broken
Thought I was over her, the pain says differently
It’s been too long, I know I shouldn’t even let this get to me
Feeling like I’m Trent Reznor in this Downward Spiral
This Pretty Hate Machine left me Broken and Fragile
I’m Mr. Self Destruct with a Wish inside my head
I was lost to a Terrible Lie and That’s What I Get
That’s What I Get
That’s What I Get
That’s What I…
I was lost to a Terrible Lie and That’s What I Get
This is too much to take, the lies that my mind creates
My one true desire is given and then taken away
And this is every night, not an uncommon occurrence
I’m in love in my dreams and in the mornin’ I am broken
Should I talk it out? Prolly not, who would understand?
Tried that before, they couldn’t comprehend what I was sayin’
silence is oppressive, need some music with a message
Julien Baker’s Sprained Ankle—girl, sing to me a second
I wanna off myself, I’m unloved, talk me off the edge
I swear, the smallest little breeze enough to send me to my death
I’ve said it for years, I’ve been longing for the sweet escape
Every day I’m hoping that I’ll get to feel that cold embrace
Yea, the reaper and I—we’ve been flirting for a lil while
He watches from the sideline as I’m struggling to hold it down
First a knife to the neck, interrupted by a text
Then a shot of whatever, couldn’t stand the taste or the stench
No, my pain’s not stemming from just one woman
My pain’s deep-rooted, suffocating, and it’s not improving
I’ve deep-throated the barrel way too many times, I’ve lost count
Think it’s time to get to work, should prolly hit the road now
Feeling like I’m Trent Reznor in this Downward Spiral
This Pretty Hate Machine left me Broken and Fragile
I’m Mr. Self Destruct with a Wish inside my head
I was lost to a Terrible Lie and That’s What I Get
That’s What I Get
That’s What I Get
That’s What I…
I was lost to a Terrible Lie and That’s What I Get
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The Target Parking Lot
03:35
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